Thursday, May 2, 2019
Wednesday, May 1, 2019
It’s coming up on three years that my family moved in and I feel like I know her pretty well now, but I recently had the pleasure of meeting someone who knows her even better than I do- a retired professor living in Nebraska who wrote me a letter to ask if he could come visit. Dave’s dad bought our dear old girl in 1943 for $9,000 on a handshake and inhabited her for 50 years, so he had a lot to tell us when he visited for a couple of hours this past Saturday morning. The turtle he buried in the backyard, the chickens they had during the war, the swing set his dad made on an oil rig, the way he would sit on the radiator and watch his dad shave, the secret compartments, the way to escape from the upstairs bedroom, his little handprints in the concrete in the backyard- I hadn’t even ever noticed them.
One of the last things Dave said to us as he left was "This is a lucky house." And I agree. Sort of, not believing in luck so much as Divine favor. This old girl is one loved and lovely and special lady indeed.
Friday, April 19, 2019
Because we live most of our lives in the middle of the story, we can't see clearly and the big picture eludes us. It's not that everything happens for a reason, it's just that our God is always and forever taking broken things and making them beautiful. And that gives us hope.
Bottom right*: I had the honor of photographing baby James' too-short 62 minute life, witnessing his parents' love and grace and strength. It changed me.
Bottom center: Hidden in the shadow of the cross
Bottom left: Hosanna to the King
Middle right: Isaiah 11:1, righteous branch
Middle center: A mirror, I see myself and my sin at the cross
Middle left: "Are caterpillars told of their impending resurrection? How in dying they will be transformed from poor earth-crawlers into creatures of the air with exquisitely painted wings? If told, do they believe?" Malcom Muggeridge
Top right: Me and my dad, his hands circa 1982. Romans 8:15
Top center: I once had a dream in which Jesus was talking to me about creation and John chapter one and he had a ring in his hand and he kept pointing to it. It's a ring and it's a crown. Ephesians 5:23
Top left: "God is light, in him there is no darkness at all." 1 John 1:5
Stitching these images together first required a breaking apart of a dogwood flower, but isn't that just the thing? Beauty from ashes. It's what God does best.
*I created these left to right which in hindsight is odd and upside down, inside out. Just like life with Jesus.
Tuesday, April 2, 2019
|Gellert Hill, Budapest, Hungary|
Tuesday, March 19, 2019
"Create in me a clean heart O God and renew a right spirit within me." Psalm 51:10
I created these weekly Lenten photography prompts to help focus my heart, my camera the paintbrush. This week it was "clean"... God's grace and love poured out on the cross makes us clean. But it's a costly and different, more complete and less organized kind of clean. William Willimon's words hit home:
That day at the Jordan, knee deep in cold water, with old John drenching him, the Annointed One began his journey down the via crucis. His baptism intimated where he would finally end. His whole life was caught up in this single sign. Our baptism does the same.
The chief biblical analogy for baptism is not the water that washes but the flood that drowns. Discipleship is more than turning over a new leaf. It is more fitful and disorderly than gradual moral formation. Nothing less than daily, often painful lifelong death will do. So Paul seems to know not whether to call what happened to him on the Damascus Road "birth" or "death"- it felt like both at the same time...
On the bank of some dark river, as we are thrust backward, onlookers will remark, 'They could kill somebody like that.' To which old John might say, 'Good, you're finally catching on.'
I'm still trying to work out what this means for my life, for the steps I take, for the things I do, but I find comfort in Willimon's description of them being fitful and disorderly, like baptism itself. It's messy and mysterious all at once, but always good when we daily place ourselves into that place of complete trust. May we all work it out, day by day, minute by minute, drowning out our old selves and breathing in the new life that brings every good thing.
Friday, March 15, 2019
Tuesday, March 12, 2019
Anna Grace won first place for her rendition of The Band Perry's "If I Die Young," and Asher had some tears after not placing but had a good lesson in perseverance and staying with it. Both wonderful, so proud of them.
Tuesday, February 26, 2019
It’s understandable. The island’s history is ancient, one era one-upping the next, comedy bubbling up through tragedy like the mahogany waves of Guinness rising in a pint glass after the second pour.
Traveling as a party of four, our scrappy crew of loud Americans full of swagger and wanderlust, we soaked in every narrative and loved every story-telling minute.
First was Hugh. Poor Hugh. Our electric bike tour guide through Dublin, he tried to tell us all about Dublin castle and St. Patrick’s church, about freedom fighters and more and more but we just mostly looked at him sideways through our glassy jet lagged eyes.
Having recovered a bit the next day, we could listen more attentively to the jolly Waterford shop owner who befriended us as we gawked at the glassblowing artisans in action, heating, banging, twirling their art- stories in glass.
Our more reserved but kind hearted driver on the Dingle peninsula was the kind of local who spoke Irish as his primary language and was rife with intrigue. It was at this point that we picked up on the endearing way the Irish use the word “ye" to refer to a group. We were mostly too terrified to listen as he drove like a bat out of hell through the single laned and twisting backroads in the black of night, but then again his stories may have been what helped us through make it through the white knuckled moments of that drive.
We didn’t necessarily speak to any locals at the Cliff of Moher- we were too busy picking our jaws off the ground- but a couple of local men told their stories without words- the accordion player with his wooden shoe for tips and the neon-clad bird feeding policeman most certainly more concerned about his aviary friends than anything having to do with the law.
In Galway, dear Galway, John of the Irish Food Trail welcomed us with stories over Irish stews, black pudding croquets, fish and chips, local whiskeys and beer tastings. It was John who told us (more than once) that the Irish don’t like the truth to get in the way of a good story.
From there it was off to the King’s Head Pub to listen to four young musicians who crafted their stories with foot stomps, guitar strings, fiddle rifts, and accordion (squeeze box?) tunes, the melodies wrapping their way around each other reminiscent of a visit to an Irish homestead in the sixteenth century. Their stories were visceral and entrancing, a true wonder from such young souls.
Maybe the most shocking and entertaining stories came from Tommy at Sean’s Bar in Athlone, the oldest pub in Ireland boasting 1,100 years of service. Tommy pulled up a chair as soon as he saw us settle in and told us all kinds of personal stories, the most notable of which was the one about a horrible case of dysentery he acquired in Thailand after smoking a bit of opium and the ensuing plane ride during which he sat between two nuns while “squeezing his arse cheeks together the whole time.” He was as colorful as the language he used, preferring the f word to all others.
But above all others, the most touching Irish storyteller was the youngest. Shortly after Dublin, we stopped over in Lismore to visit a friend and meet her family. We roamed around some old castle ruins and had a bit of craic (fun) visiting and as we walked on little 2-year-old Mia looked up at me while holding her mom’s hand. With a pacifier dangling from her mouth, she told the sweetest three word story there is to tell.
“You’re my sister,” she declared, pointing my way.
Yep, it’s in their blood alright. Even blonde whisped Mia in her little Mary Jane shoes got me with that one.
Sunday, January 6, 2019
Because I had little ones of my own at the time, I couldn't make the drive to Fairhope, AL, when my oldest niece Caroline was born. But this time with my kids older, I was able to make it for my newest niece, Emma Kate's birth day. All that to say, because I feel as though my photos can be more than photos but also a prayer, I'm taking a minute to bless both Caroline and Emma Kate together. So here is my hope and prayer for you, sweet girls.
I pray that the role "sister" would be a powerful and positive and guiding force in your lives. May you be united, kind-hearted, and strong. May you see each other as a gift, always. May you bring Good News to the world- that the God who made us also loves us and saves us. May you be wise and good, helping one another, picking one another up when you fall. May you know how much you're loved and live out that love in a way that absolutely changes everything.
You two are and will be a force for good. I love you, sweet girls.
All my love,
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Wednesday, October 17, 2018
Sunday, October 7, 2018
not a thing
One week ago I was worshipping at a Hungarian church where there were these cubbies outside of the sanctuary, a holdover of Communist rule when it was illegal to have a Bible outside of the church building. So today I’m thankful for the religious freedom I often take for granted but also for the love of God that cannot be quenched- even in the face of oppression and great opposition. Nothing can separate it from us. Not a thing.
Wednesday, September 19, 2018
I do too
I struggle with sleep and with depression. I am well acquainted with that heavy feeling that relentlessly pulls one down down down into an abyss of darkness. I often don't like being in my own skin or being with other people. I have the head knowledge that I am beautiful and that being with others is so important but it doesn't translate easily to my heart every day. I have to work at it. I have to make myself fight for gratitude and I have to borrow the joy of God daily. My family isn't perfect and I'm not the best mother and I often fail others. Others struggle much more, others struggle less, but I struggle. And I just need anyone who knows me or likes me to know that. I struggle TOO.
If you see anything good in me, it's because I've hidden myself in the Rock. I've let the Spirit fill me and use me and that's all I've got. I take medicine and supplements and I watch what I eat (most times) and I've taken to meditating more often and practicing hospitality and gratitude and these are all important. But being myself and taking care of myself isn't enough. I have to let the Spirit of God take care of me, let myself be set free in Jesus, to let truth wash over me every day so that I can run free and into the calling God has just for me. This doesn't fix circumstances but it brings peace when I let it.
Last night an old friend and I were talking about our personality types and she said, "I'm really surprised [that we're the same type]... I don't know what that means except I guess that I battle against anxiety and depression and I guess I don't imagine that you do?" So this is just me getting real and setting the record straight. I struggle too. You are not alone.
Thursday, September 13, 2018
In Anthony Ray Hinton's book The Sun Still Shines, he describes the 30 years he spent on death row for a crime he didn't commit. His story is heartwrenching and moving and I highly recommend reading it, but one of the things I've been pondering was what he briefly mentioned about his visits with his mother. Of the two sets of prison clothes Anthony was issued, he wore one set daily but the other set he folded carefully and set aside for visiting day so that on the day his mama and his best friend Lester visited, he could look his very best. It was a very small thing, but it was something Anthony could do to comfort his mom. It's a principle I've come to understand. Or maybe it's a theory. But this is it: beauty comforts. Even if it's just your best set of prison whites and a smile.
It's why floral arrangements fill funeral homes. It's why mamas sing lullabies to their crying babies. It's why the sight of a football player or celebrity at a pediatric cancer unit makes us tear up- we know that this is right and good. People who can make a beautiful football pass or sing a beautiful song or make a beautiful movie- these people coming to be with us in our suffering- this comforts. That's not to say that the presence of beauty just makes us feel better, but it can also bolster our strength and sensibilities and actually make us stronger in the midst of the sufferings we encounter. All beauty points to the God of all comfort, the One who is always with us. It reminds us of the very presence and care of God.
It's like the rainbow I captured on the way to a funeral- God's comfort in our storms.
These glimpses of Presence and Beauty don't make our sufferings completely dissipate and they don't give us all the answers. But it gives us enough of a hint to make it through if we can receive it.
It's why Paul tells us that "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy- think about such things." Philippians 4:8
There are some flowers just starting to wilt on my coffee table. A friend remembers me every year on September 7th- the due date for what would have been my fourth baby had I not miscarried. The flowers were beautiful but they don't hold a candle to her the beauty of her thoughtfulness and her love and her presence in my life.
May we all be that kind of beauty-bearing person in a dark and suffering world.
Friday, August 24, 2018
In 1949, Sarah Margaret Chaney glided down the center aisle of First Methodist Church in the small town of Clinton, Louisiana radiating beauty and joy. Sixty-nine years later, a photo of her vibrant smile graced the front and center of that same country church as her family and friends gathered to visit, pray, sing, reminisce, and celebrate her life so well lived and her heavenly homecoming. Her daughter Susan beamed her usual joy as she took her daddy’s arm and walked under the huge and ancient cedar tree to the burial site. Uncle Kenny made us laugh (he always does) and Barbara’s eulogy made me reach for my handkerchief. The great grandkids ran around and broke the silence bringing us all great comfort- these new little lives in the midst of loss. We had our sweet tea and fried chicken and jambalaya and banana pudding in the church’s fellowship hall where the neatly painted cinder block walls have bathrooms labeled “men” and “ladies.” We’re on the road home but I’m thankful for the time together (I’m kind of the smartest person ever for marrying into the sweetest family on earth) and for this kindhearted lady who made such an impact on so many. Our lives are short- but a breath- but they really do mean something for forever. See you soon, Ms Sarah. Give my daddy a hug for me.