Thursday, July 14, 2011
I didn't anticipate it being so much harder this year. You would think that a newborn, three-year-old, and a five-year old would be harder to navigate than this year's one, four, and six-year-olds, but you (or in this case, I) would be wrong.
I've been lagging behind and fighting off feelings of defeat ever since we started. But after the Lord used Kathy's encouraging words to speak straight to my heart, I've rethought the venture and remembered that it's not about getting to the next black tab, plugging through the words just to plug through the words, but it's for knowing Jesus better and loving Him more. It's for being washed by the Word and having it wash over me, changing me from the inside out.
It's been tough this year. Really tough.
Nevertheless, it's worth it. And somehow, when I choose to persevere, the Lord just really shows up.
Psalm 23 popped up in the middle of my day's read today as I watched Anna Grace and Zeke swim. And there it was- my quiet waters.
Now, quiet waters are NOT how you would describe life at my house. Not at all.
I cannot emphasize this point enough. NO QUIET WATERS.
But the Lord was speaking to my heart that if I choose to relinquish my sense of control, He WILL lead me beside still waters. He WILL restore my soul.
My weary soul.
So I'll keep on keepin' on and if you're on this schedule or another schedule, I encourage you to keep on keepin' on, too.
He'll lead you to those quiet waters.
He's a good, good Shepherd.
Psalm 23:1-6 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.