Sunday, June 21, 2015

the Secret Things

These days I can very often be found wearing ear buds.  I have found Audible.com to be a wonderful way to boost my productivity-  I chop onions, clean toilets, match up clean socks, edit pictures, and even walk the dog while listening to books.  It's great.  My husband and I share an account and it was his turn to make a selection, so I've been listening to Stephen King's 11/22/63 - a story about time travel and the JFK assassination.  The story's main idea is set on finding a moment in time that changes lives and going back and changing that moment.  It's an interesting thought. Jack and I are big fans of stories of time travel and big-thinking science for that matter so although the book is a little too dark for my liking, it spurs some good conversation.

What would you go back and change if you could?

my dad in the 1950's, top left
 Jack says maybe he wouldn't change anything.  After all, God uses all our mistakes and is in the business of redemption and what if all the mistakes we've made have brought us to this moment- this good moment in time?

True.

But I was thinking less about mistakes and more along the lines of accidents.  I wasn't even thinking about big events in world history like Stephen King.  I was thinking of my life, people I know.  What if I could go back to late October of 2002 and stop my parents from getting in the car that night that Dad crashed into a tree on a dark Texas highway?  I think if I could change any one thing, that would be it.

But then we talked some more about the possibilities and whether or not time was linear or if some sort of multiverse reality would blow our minds one day. But of course only God knows the why and the how and the what if's of this fragile life we live.  The "everything happens for a reason" cliche is too much of a cliche to really settle our big questions.  It just doesn't.  What settles them a little better is what I read in Deuteronomy a few weeks ago- "The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law."  (Deuteronomy 29:29) Maybe that's the same idea as the cliche, but really it's more complicated, deeper and more layered than that. There are Secret Things too much for us and it's more than a just a reason, it is a reality and a host of possibilities, all sparked and set in motion by a God that is Love. 

It makes it simple, but it doesn't necessarily make it easy.  Some things have been revealed and some things haven't.  The Secret Things belong to the Lord our God and we trust Him as the small and vulnerable children we are.

Still, on days like today, I think about finding a wormhole to change that moment in 2002 only because I sure do miss my dear old dad. I'd even hang out for years in the late nineties if I had to like King's protagonist did in the 1950's.  But alas, the Secret Things are too much for my capacities, so I'll trust in what has been revealed.  Death to be defeated, everlasting life gifted, and an eventual Reunion.  And though I may tear up thinking about my dad's hearty laugh on this Father's Day, what HAS been revealed is still enough.  More than enough.  It is the Gospel, Good News, for however long the Secret Things remain secret. 

1 comment:

lifeinthevillage said...

Beautiful thoughts me dear. And a beautiful heart. And audible.com?? I think I might be on that train~Fun times!!