It is not the most wonderful time of the year. Jack and I have been talking about this a lot lately.
It's a time when expectations run high and bank accounts bleed money and the schedule is stuffed like a suitcase that you just can't seem to close because it's too full. And if it's not the most wonderful time of the year, then what is wrong with you? Shouldn't your heart sing every morning of advent, so jingle-belly full of Christmas cheer? If it doesn't, what then?
If you are feeling more weary than you are wonderful, the good news is that Christmas isn't about our feelings. It's not about us at all. In fact, if you are like me and you struggle with darkness, then the good news is that if you can sit in that darkness long enough asking for light, the Light comes and that is exactly and only what Christmas is- the Savior donning his fragility and vulnerability even down to his tiny newborn toes so that he can save us from all the darkness. That is Christmas.
So it's certainly not the most wonderful time of the year in the fake-smile, shopping cart full sense but (and this is what I'm holding out for) Christmas is the most wonderful moment of the year- a moment to remember that Light has come and overcome darkness and that is what we celebrate and hold onto at Christmas no matter our mind or mood.
My Christmas anthem this year isn't very traditionally Christmasy, but its message is light in the dark so I'm counting it:
"Throw your body down into the sea
It won't quench your thirst no matter how deep
Cup your hands like a broken shell
Taste some water from a different well
I said it, I meant it
You will never thirst again, you will never thirst again..."
"Faith is the art of holding onto things in spite of your changing moods and circumstances." CS Lewis
"...our hope is in You..." Jeremiah 14:22